Unit 6

The Universal Loving-Kindness exercise was different.  I would have to say I didn't really get anything from it.  It was relaxing because at first I was focusing on my breathing but the whole reciting things doesn't really work for me.  

The Integral Assessment was eye opening.  I think that psychospiritual is the area in which need growth and development for me.  I was focusing on my I am lazy or will procrastinate everything. This will cause me stress because when I have to do things last minute, on a deadline I am stressed out and will find myself with neck and shoulder pain or forget to eat and then get headaches.  It's a vicious cycle.  I realized that I am lazy not because I have a lack of drive but it's because of fear of failure.  I want to be perfect at everything I do (which I know there is no such thing).  If I don't think I have enough time or the ability to do it perfectly I just won't do it.  Or I will put it off until I have to.  I kick myself in the but every week and wish that I was more organized but I am not.  I used to be major competitive and that would keep me driven but I know that's not very good for you either.  

I think the exercises I am going to implement to help me is one reading my bible every day.  My strength comes from God, not me.  When I keep my focus on Him I can accomplish anything.  I am also going to do the breathing exercises like the subtle mind one, I like that one.  I NEED to train my mind to be quiet.  I think since I am constantly thinking about all the things I need to do, I overwhelm myself and give up before I start.  I also want to try running without my Ipod and just focus on my breathe and prayer while I run.  I used to do this when I went for walks and had wonderful conversations with God.  Don't know why I stopped.